Thinking and Queston's Then Again Not

I spent the day walking when I was suppose to be in yeshiva learning. I mean the day started ok; Wake up, wash up, get dressed, say bracha's. Drink a cup off coffee, 'yeah fell of the herbal tea and sugar substatute' my diet is shot Hashem willing I'll have the strength to return to it. 'the pain's are back'... 'Baruch Hashem'.

I walked from the yeshiva Chut Shel Chesed to the old city via the shechem gate 'through the middle of the muslim quarter to Shuvah banim, the yeshiva of Hrav Eliezer Brelend. The first time in 12 years. And the first time with out my gun. I walked with two talmidim of the Shuva Banim. We walked and blessed Hashem and each other. Talking about our Rebbe and the Torah. Not even paying attention to where we were or what was going on around us. Emunah chazak it felt good to just trust in Hashem and not even think about it. really I took no thouhgt of it ! Wow! I mean I used to walk around all the time in condition yellow, with one in the pipe, ready to rock, always scanning The doors, windows, classifying targets reprocessing judging treats, assigning priories. I mean jacked up and good to go sir let's rock! I mean hard rock!.... Wait just minute? What Yaakov?

Anyway I'm now back from the ambulance that just came because my son was shocked with 220v 'baruch Hasem' all is well they checked him out, EKG the works and it only took 3 minutes to get here and we know all the young men. We made a minyan for me to davim mariv. but Pray for Yaakov shmuel ben leah malka.

But I really felt and realized the Matrix today as I prayed for an apartment in yerushalim near the yeshiva. also went to pull my chvusa out of his home and drag him back to learn. Bauch Hashem. I looked at a 3 million dollar house in the Old City, imean regular apartment in jeru is 300,000 $ I'm crazy right but the rav said what's a few zero's, zero they are nothing for Hashem Right.

Likutey Moharan #33.

"Mi HaIsh Hechafeit Chaim Who is the person who desires life), Who loves days of seeing good"(Psalms 34:13)

The principle is that a person should pursue peace. 'He should see to it that ther is peace between Jews. and that each person is at peace with his attributes- I.e. He should not be conflicted within himself over what happens to him. It should make no difference to him whether he experiences good times or bad, he always finds Hashem in it.
You see that being at peace means total trust in Hashem no doubts at all not even a thought of how or where or if ? just like it is a movie. "when man makes peace with Hashem then Hashem makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. they cant touch you! How is that a person can find Hashem in every thing it is only through the Torah, which is called peace, as is written all her pahs are peaceful" (proverbs 3:17). And by means of the Tzaddikim, who are called "covenant of peace. as a result he can love peace in every situation, both in good times... And there can be peace between Jews, with them loving one another. Only in this manner can a person come to true inner peace. This is the foundation of Emunah!

Erev tov Reb Nati